worst boy friend

Hii Jude..

how's ur life? was good r bad?hmmm me?? Yaaa I'm always got very good life. I mean I always made it good.

I wanna share to you about my past. I wish all of us could learn from it. Maybe it sounds cliche but it is true buddy. That happened in the end of 2011. Its about love I mean a boyfriend. I have a boyfriend when I was at SHS named mr. S. We had a relationship almost 2 years but it ended sadly. I knew in began  I was wrong because He showed that He never took me seriously but I forced him to be with me. At the time I'm really stupid.. and you can guess it as long as we had relationship the only one thing that I got Its only PAIN :(

At the time I never used my brain when I make a decision, I'm only used my heart and it causes I'm always made a wrong decision. When he's hurting me I always submitted it with forgive him. And never took learn from it. Because he always did wrong things, never take care of me, never take care of my feeling and always flirting with another girls but I'm always forgive him. Until in the end of December 2011 finally he ended our relationship, and it makes me yap maybe u can guess it..

I'm crying all the time and i didnt want to come to my campus. It means I must take a break awhile from Campus activity. I didnt wanna eat anything and u know buddy who is the person which is dying when seeing me like that? THAT IS MY MOTHER :"(

She is become the only one person who is never leaving me, even when I'm in the worst condition. And I made another stupid thing when I cant take control my emotion and I'm hurting my self, I hit my body and I grab my hair the worst thing I almost end my life with hurt my wrist..

It happened almost 5 months and really influent to my family's life. My mother stop working, and my father got sick. That is become the black notes on the history of my life. BUT IT ALSO BECAME A COSTLY LESSON ..

You wanna know how I can standing up again?? actually I dont understand because it was just happen but the true thing that I HAVE THE BEST FAMILY IN THE WORLD ESPECIALLY MY MOTHER..The only one person who gaves me the true and pure love.

I wish every person who read this can take a lesson. Always remember when you love someone, dont only use ur heart but let ur brain lead u. And always love ur mother and hear her advice because she never misleading you. Good luck with ur life buddy :D